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The sky’s so blue;
the sun’s rays shining down
I reached for you;
your hand wrapped around my own
I want it to last; I want it to be forever
suddenly the light pierces through;
The dream is over.

Reality’s not so bad
We laugh, we talk heart to heart
we even disagree;
a friendship built to last

Yet I’m still hoping
yet i’m still clinging for dear life
yet I’m still praying:
yet somehow deep inside
I know — your heart is your own
you’ll never be mine
as much as I want to be yours
a friend is what I’ll be ’til I die.

i hope for a turning point
I cling to somewhat magic moments
I pray for a miracle: maybe God will grant my wish at last

But I am smarter than that
I know what’s real and what’s make believe
I don’t want to dwell in dreams
But I’m afraid to wake and feel

How long before I can be brave?
How much more pain can I take?
How many times do I have to cry?
I don’t want to be alone
it seems that’s the only way to go
I’m afraid to be left behind
It’s nobody’s fault but my own
Am I not worthy?
Am I not pleading hard
enough?