Happy 36th to me!!!

Wow.  I am old.

I did not celebrate my birthday yet.  I’m going to celebrate it on Friday when I can sleep late the day after.  Nothing big, just dinner with my roomie/life team partner/ish.  His birthday is 3 days from mine so we always celebrate it as one.

This particular birthday is significant for me because this is the year I start to change my life and finally go after something I have wanted for years.  This is also the year where I felt freedom — real freedom.  This year revealed many things for me.

I thank God for another year.

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August I love you!!!

August is coming.  It only means school is starting — and that means my new life begins.  It will be hard, probably even unbearable, but I will power through.  I want it THAT much.

I am beyond excited to go back to school but at the same time I can’t help but feel nervous.  This is a brand new experience for me.  The school system here might be completely different from what I was exposed to in the Philippines and the course I am planning to take is no cakewalk either.  I really have to up my game, let go of distractions and concentrate on studies and studies alone.  Everything else goes down the list.

Now on to other things…

I was surprised to see soooo many people, children and adults alike going gaga over Pokemon Go.  I did not understand the hype…until I downloaded the app myself.  I AM OBSESSED!  I literally walk 4 blocks home to stop by Pokestops and walk around to hatch my eggs.  There is something very addictive about catching them all.

Who’s your favorite Pokemon?

Finally!

Dreams do come true.

I’ve never felt complete because I was never able to go to college and finish my studies.  A lot of factors (migrating to a new country, work, language, the list goes on) blocked me into actually going back to school but FINALLY this year I was able to actually do it.  It scared me to just let go of my stable and reliable source of income/job, but I figured you have to sacrifice some things in order to fulfill something.  I’m not getting any younger so I pushed myself to take the leap this year.

It will be difficult, I’ll probably cry when I’m broke or miss the things I was able to do when I had a full time job, but it’s worth it.  I just know it and I feel it in my gut.

Wish me luck!

 

2016!

SOOOOO!!!

Let me start off by saying Happy New Year!  2015 was an ok year for me.  It started out awesome but ended up kinda MEH!.  I’m hoping that 2016 will be better although I think that it is completely up to me.  If there is anything about me that I need to change, it has to be my fear of letting go — I tend to hold on to things and people even if in reality I don’t use it anymore or in case of people, I don’t enjoy hanging out with them anymore or I really cannot stand the way they are.  I unintentionally let go of people that in all honesty made me feel suppressed and enslaved.  That may not necessarily be their intention but I just feel used at times.  I didn’t like how things ended but in a way I am relieved that it did end.

I have to take care of school this year.  2016 is the year I take charge and change my life!

Backstreet withdrawal?!

So tickets for Nick Carter’s tour were on sale yesterday.  The tickets aren’t pricey but for some reason I just did not feel like buying.  I don’t understand it either.  I mean hands down, Nick is my favorite BSB.  Maybe it’s because I ‘m a fan of the group?  The truth is I don’t really listen much to Nick’s solo material.  After Now or Never I didn’t buy or listen to the ones that came after the first album.  I liked Now or Never, not as much as I thought I would but it wasn’t a complete and utter crap of an album.  Maybe it’s me getting older?

Anyway, even though I don’t feel like following his solo career I have been watching his journey on DWTS and I’m really hoping he wins.  The judges are pro-Bindi at this point but I think that Nick has a chance.

I got accepted at the singing contest I auditioned for — now I have to sing at the preliminaries on December 6.  EXCITED!

CURRENTLY…

Bull_Fighting-posterCURRENTLY WATCHING:  Bull Fighting (Dou Niu, Yao Bu Yao?) starring the gorgeous Mike He, Hebe Tian and Lee Wei.  This is actually an old Taiwanese series (2007) that I watched well, because of Mike He.  This is a story about basketball, family ties, friendshop and love.  It also stars Godfrey Gao of Mortal Instruments:  City of Bones so the hotness is well supplied!  I love how the story is integrated with street basketball and I absolutely LOVE the way Mike He plays ball!  I also love the OST of this series.

CURRENTLY EATING:  Shopsy’s All Beef Quarter Pounder Hot Dog.  I did not feel like cooking anything and i know that processed meats are supposed to cause cancer and shit.  I’m just not up to chopping, boiling, braising, sauteing and all that shit today.

thumb_600CURRENTLY CRAVING:  Baton Rouge’s Apple Cobbler.  Effin’ TO DIE FOR.  A warm apple cobbler with cinnamon, caramel sauce, walnuts and french vanilla ice cream.  How can you resist?  The sprinkled walnuts takes me to another level of heaven.  Imagine eating that after a delectable plate of rib steak and mashed.  SOOO GOOD!

CURRENTLY DRINKING:  Gibeau’s Orange Julep juice.  The sugar keeps on piling up!  I need to freaking stop or I won’t wake up tomorrow morning.

download (1) Urban_Decay_Naked_Skin_Liquid_Foundation_30ml_1390913626hd-foundation_P00015CURRENTLY WANTING TO BUY:  a new foundation.  I still have yet to decide which one.  I am currently using Urban Decay’s Naked Skin foundation but I am feeling an urge to change brands.  Don’t get me wrong, UD’s Naked Skin is good — light on the skin, good coverage, not oily and it fits my skin tone well.  I just have this thing of not sticking with cosmetic brands.  I’ve already tried Makeup Forever’s HD Foundation and Lancôme`s Teint Idole and they were all pretty good but I still think that the best one is still out there somewhere.

mikehehebe-copie-1CURRENTLY CRUSHING:  Who else?  Mike Freaking He!  He is especially HOT in Bull Fighting!  I just finished watching Go!  Single Lady and that made me want to watch Bull Fighting.  He is a sight to behold!  I swear if he stares at me the way he stares at Hebe I will faint!

CURRENT SONG ON REPEAT:  Marvin Gaye by Charlie Puth and Meghan Trainor.  I don’t necessarily like this song but I have to sing it with my roomie for my friend’s birthday so I have on repeat so I could memorize the words.  I’m going to admit that it’s a struggle because deep inside me I don’t want to sing this song.

CURRENTLY UPSET ABOUT:  Nick Carter’s scores on Dancing with the Stars.  SERIOUSLY?!?!?!?!  As much as I love Nick I knew that his Argentine Tango was meh but this Quickstep was sick!  I hate how they’re obsessing over Bindi — she looks so stocky when she dances!  I see no lines whatsoever.  They are nitpicking every single thing about Nick!  I mean, “out of sync for a quarter second” — REALLY??!?!?!

Roomie trantrums and shake diets

I’m here at my sister’s right now because I had enough of my room-mate’s tantrums.  He (yes, HE) has this thing where everything I do or say is wrong and he hasn’t been speaking to me since Saturday.  I for one had enough of his PMSing and I do not wish to ruin my day by seeing his surly face.  It makes me want to tell him that we should just go our separate ways when the lease ends.  He treats me like a girlfriend when it’s convenient for him and to be honest it’s getting tedious.  Then again when the time comes I know I won’t be able to do it.  Why did I get myself into this mess., I would never understand.

My co-worker’s into this diet regimen where she would substitute this shake for a meal.  She wants me to try it out because she knows that I am diabetic and she’s also aware of how much I suck when it comes to controlling my sugar intake.  A part of me wants to try it but a part of me also knows that I might not be able to follow it as religiously as she does and if that happens it would be a total waste of money (it costs around 400$).  Another part of me argues that I should learn how to discipline myself.  Arguing with myself is the hardest thing to do!

Law and order

I had nothing to do so I decided to google odd shit and I decided to type “Is it legal” and here are the results:

IS IT LEGAL:

  • to marry yourself in Canada.  REALLY?  WHO the fuck asks this?  Do you love yourself THAT MUCH?
  • to marry your cousin in Canada.  That is it.  Sickos live in Canada.
  • to stream in Canada.  Finally a search query that doesn’t give me the hibbie jibbies
  • to eat dog in Canada.  Why do I have the feeling that Filipinos are searching for this?

So after that i got curious and searched for this:

IS IT ILLEGAL:

  • to sleep in you car.  A fair question!
  • to stream movies in Canada.  Canadians love movies but don’t want to pay for it apparently
  • to drive with flip flops.  IT BETTER BE!!!
  • to make moonshine in Canada.  Try and we’ll see!

Speaking of legal and illegal, I hate how this Laglag bala shenanigans in the Philippines are becoming rampant.  What a shame — are people THAT desperate for money that they try to swindle it from people who are mostly fellow Pinoys who work their asses off in a foreign land to feed their families?  This is a new level of low.  We get so defensive when other nations criticize our country but with people doing revolting acts like this do we really have the right to say anything?

Horror film wisdom.

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  • When it seems that you’ve killed the monster, never check to see if it’s really dead.
  • If you find that your house is built upon or near a cemetery, was once a church used for black masses, had previous inhabitants who went mad or committed suicide or died in some horrible fashion or who performed necrophilia or satanic practices, move away immediately.
  • Do not search the basement, especially when the power has just gone out.
  • If your children speak to you in Latin or any other language which they do not know, or if they speak using a voice other than their own, shoot them at once. It will save you a lot of grief in the long run. Note: it’s unlikely they’ll die easy, so be prepared.
  • When you have the benefit of numbers, never go alone.
  • If you’re searching for something which caused a noise and find out that it’s just the cat, leave the room immediately if you value your life.
  • If you’re running from the monster, you will most likely trip or fall. If you are female you will.
  • Stay away from certain geographical locations, some of which are listed here: Amityville, Elm Street, Transylvania, Nilbog (God help you if you recognize this one), the Bermuda Triangle, or any small town in Maine, especially if it is called Derry.
  • If your car runs out of gas at night, do not go to the nearby deserted-looking house to phone for help.
  • When something bad is chasing you, bear in mind that when you try to start your car, no matter how reliable the vehicle is normally, you’ll have to crank the engine over many times before it will fire up.
  • People arriving to rescue you generally get ambushed by the monster, so don’t rely on them as your only means of escape. In fact, expect to be surprised and delayed by encountering their flayed corpse at some point.
  • Do not call the police as they are either evil and will turn you in or will not believe you and laugh at you. Either way, you must handle the problem yourself.
  • If you are using a gun to combat the all-comsuming evil, it is a good idea to quickly find a new means of defense, because no matter how much ammo you have, you’ll run out just before you kill the monster (unless your name is Ash, in which case, you’ll never have to reload).
  • If you have defeated the monster, pay close attention to the camera, if it pans away for no apparent reason at all, get the heck out of there.
  • Skeptics are always proved wrong in some horrible, nasty, painful way. Be a believer.
  • If you are a child, don’t panic! Monsters only attack overly horny teenagers. Children can NOT be killed in a movie, only possessed or absorbed. So cheer up!
  • If you’ve beaten the monster into a bloody pulp and you’re sure he must be dead, take the opportunity to dismember, burn, eat, blow up or otherwise utterly destroy him.

So here I go. AGAIN.

SOOOOOO.

Quel surpris!  I have my blogging bug back.  I notice myself missing having a blog whenever I hit a wall — the same wall I have been hitting for the last 8 or so years.  Once again I find myself stuck in a non-stressful yet not-the-life-I-want life.  Nothing really changed.  I can change it, but I am too scared to.  Familiar?

I changed my career, thinking I’d have something to focus all my energy to.  It did distract me for a while but as I got used to it I started overthinking about how my life would be years from now.  I then convince myself that I should live life one day at a time.  Of course it won’t work, but I do it anyway.