A change…?

I wish I could come here and say that life had been nicer to me since my last rant, but unfortunately, that is not the case. I do not know if what I am currently feeling is just a phase I would eventually be able to overcome, or if it is a sign that it

The second effin’ wave.

Overwhelmed. Overworked. That’s how everyone is feeling at work right now. The second wave of the pandemic is now at its peak, and the front liners (like myself) are feeling the brunt and pressure of it all. I feel for the doctors, nurses and respiratory technicians who are all at the front and center of

Journey.

One thing I learned after I found out that I am suffering from depression was that this battle does not end. I do not mean that in a dark, sinister way — I just think that the journey to being better is a lifelong process. I say this because years after I was diagnosed, there

Me, my age and Bangtan Sonyeondan.

Roughly 2 years ago, I faced something unfamiliar that shook me to my core. People around me describe me as someone who is blunt, someone who has a strong and brash personality, confident…mean. I did not necessarily see myself that way, but I unknowingly lived up to my reputation. It worked for years, until 2018.

I love myself

I am here again.  I’m afraid the reason’s not good, though. My battle with depression and self doubt started early — as the middle child, I always felt bypassed; unimportant.  I felt that no one cared what I did, what I liked, What I have to say didn’t matter.  It may not be true, but

So.

I haven’t been here.  I know. 2018 hasn’t been kind to me, if I were to be completely honest.  I went through things I never thought I ever would, and it shook me.  Growing up in a third world country when everything is a battle, I’ve always viewed people who break down as weaklings; quitters;

Happy 36th to me!!!

Wow.  I am old. I did not celebrate my birthday yet.  I’m going to celebrate it on Friday when I can sleep late the day after.  Nothing big, just dinner with my roomie.  His birthday is 3 days from mine so we always celebrate it as one. This particular birthday is significant for me because

August I love you!!!

August is coming.  It only means school is starting — and that means my new life begins.  It will be hard, probably even unbearable, but I will power through.  I want it THAT much. I am beyond excited to go back to school but at the same time I can’t help but feel nervous.  This

Finally!

Dreams do come true. I’ve never felt complete because I was never able to go to college and finish my studies.  A lot of factors (migrating to a new country, work, language, the list goes on) blocked me into actually going back to school but FINALLY this year I was able to actually do it.

2016!

SOOOOO!!! Let me start off by saying Happy New Year!  2015 was an ok year for me.  It started out awesome but ended up kinda MEH!.  I’m hoping that 2016 will be better although I think that it is completely up to me.  If there is anything about me that I need to change, it