I recently watched the 2018 Melon Music Awards (MMAs) and I was blessed to have been able to witness BTS’ EPIC 20-minute performance, where they slayed.  The vocals were so LIVE I was able to hear the heavy breathing — I can’t even sing while climbing the stairs, and they had to perform 3 songs that were choreography heavy.  I was most impressed by the dance line’s (J-Hope, Jimin and Jungkook <3) Korean inspired dance intro.

Here’s the full performance:

Aside from that, they also won 7 awards including TWO DAESANGS (daesang = grand prize), one for Album of the Year and one for Artist of the Year.




I haven’t been here.  I know.

2018 hasn’t been kind to me, if I were to be completely honest.  I went through things I never thought I ever would, and it shook me.  Growing up in a third world country when everything is a battle, I’ve always viewed people who break down as weaklings; quitters; overdramatic.  Until, one day, it happened to me.

I never really saw myself as someone who would succumb to depression.  I’ve always believed that I was tough as nails, so when my doctor told me that I was suffering from depression, I wanted to punch her face.  How dare she tell me that I’m mentally sick.  I don’t do depression.  The truth is, deep inside my core, I knew there is something working against me.

I don’t want to get into the hows, the whens, the whys.  I just want to finally acknowledge that I was in fact, ill.  As a matter of fact, I still am.  The only difference is now, I am fighting.

Fanfic recs

SOOOOO I have been addicted to Jikook (Jimin and Jungkook) fanfiction lately and I feel the need to share all my favorite stories with everyone.  There are so many creative writers out there and I sincerely believe that their work(s) should be read by the world.  It’s a long list so stay tuned.

Meanwhile, everyone can start with this light, fluffy one shot:

dear diary, holy crap i think i’m in love with park jimin by jungkooks hyung (bangtans_boy)

New Year, new skin care routine

Happy 2018!

I want to start 2018 by taking care of myself, particularly my face and body.  I’m not really a “girly” girl — I put makeup on only if I have no choice and I just wash my face everyday and put moisturizer, especially since the weather is harsh here in Canada.  So I decided to start the new year, I have to try and take good care of my skin, since it’ll be my skin til I die, and I perform a lot so it’ll be embarrassing to perform with a nasty skin.  That being said, I came across the Korean 10-step skin care routine.  Yes, you read it right, 10 steps, as in T-E-N steps.  I’ve always wondered how Koreans maintain their flawless skin and I decided maybe I should give it a try.

Now let me go into detail about the steps:

  1.  Banila co Clean it zero purityStep 1 — Oil Cleanser.  My research online told me that Koreans do “double cleansing” — This is the first stage.  Oil cleansers remove all the makeup (yes, even waterproof ones) on your face and neck,  I am using the Banila Co. Clean it Zero Purity for Sensitive Skin.  It’s an amazing product, it really takes out everything! (42$ CAD)


The face shop rice water bright cleansing foamStep 2 — Water-based Cleanser.  The final stage of double cleansing.  It basically takes away all the remaining dirt and residue that the oil cleanser left out.  I am currently using the Face Shop Rice Water Bright Cleansing Foam.  I got this as a Christmas gift so I figured why not incorporate it?  It is doing it’s job as far as I’m concerned.  ($12 CAD)


Skinfood-BlackSugar-MaskStep 3 — Exfoliator.  This product takes away all your dead cells, leaving your skin feeling smooth, soft and polished.  This step should be done around twice a week, depending on your skin’s sensitivity.  This product can be pretty abrasive so if you have sensitive skin, put a bit of soothing gel with it to lessen the rough texture.  I am currently using Skin Food Black Sugar Mask.  I have only used this once so far.  The product is pretty rough on my skin so I’ll probably use a soothing gel next time.  It does leave your skin soft and polished.  ($15 CAD)


Step 4 — TonerBotanic farm Avocado honey rich toner Now this step has been a part of my old skin care routine, but Korean toners are different from the toners I have been using.  First off you apply it using your hands, not a cotton pad.  I always though that toners are used as a second step after cleansing in case there’s some left, but Korean skin care uses toners to prepare your skin for the products that are coming next.  It hydrates the skin and balances PH levels.  I am currently using the Botanic Farm Avocado Honey Rich Toner. (24.99$ CAD)

Step 5 — EssenceBotanic farm ferment first essenceThis is called The heart of Korean Skin Care.  According to SokoGlam, it is a toner/serum hybrid that is made for hydrating and aiding skin repair and cell turnover.  I am currently using Botanic Farm Rice Ferment First Essence.  (35$ CAD)




Step 6 — Treatments52100595-belif_hungarian-water-essence_enThis is where serums, ampules, boosters and concentrated essences belong to.  They basically treat whatever it is in your skin you want to take care of the most, from uneven skin tone, large pores, acne and many more.  Each skin is different, so this product is what makes your skin care YOU.  I am using  Belif Hungarian Water Essence Lightweight Hydrating Serum.  I just got this for free with the moisturizer that i purchased and I wanted to try it.  So far so good!  (51$ CAD)


Step 7 — Sheet MasksMediheal HDP Pore stamping black mask exThis is what introduced me to Korean skin care in the first place. I was just curious about it because I have seen BTS (Jimin, Suga, Jin and Jhope to be exact) use sheet masks and I wanted to know what it will do to my skin.  They are called the soul of Korean skin care.  I have been using Mediheal for a while, particularly the Mediheal H.D.P. Pore-Stamping Black Mask Ex.  It relaxes my skin and reduces the redness, which is my number one concern.  (35.99/box of 10)


Step 8 — Eye Creambelif moisturizing and firming eye creamThis step I find is the one I needed to add to my routine the most.  I have noticed that the skin around my eyes are getting drier and flakier.  I guess it comes with aging (kill me now).  Research told me that the skin around our eyes are more sensitive and delicate so we must apply a more concentrated type of hydration.  I am using the Belif Moisturizing and Firming Eye Cream.  I am seeing the effects of this product immediately after 2 uses.  The skin around my eye no longer feels flaky.  (59$ CAD)

Step 9 — belif the true cream moisturizing bombMoisturizer.  This step has also been a part of my old routine, but I must say that Korean moisturizers are gentler.  I usually get a stinging sensation with the moisturizers sold here, but the Korean counterparts are more lightweight, but more as in MORE hydrating.  I am using Belif  The True Cream Moisturizing Bomb.  I got this product as a sample, along with the eye cream and after trying it and seeing the results I was convinced.  My skin feels soft and it stays soft all throughout the day.  (47$ CAD)

Step 10 — Sun Protection.  We all know that the sun’s UV rays can cause premature aging and skin cancer so we must protect our skin from it at all times.  I have yet to buy my Korean sun protection so wish me luck!


downloadMOVIE TO CHECK OUT:  It.  I watched this with my roommate and his siblings.  I enjoy watching scary movies, but none of them scares me, so I look for a cohesive plot with amazing twists.  It made me laugh, even jump out of my seat out of surprise (once but still, considering it doesn’t really happen) and even cheer for characters.  I’m not really surprised that I liked this movie, since it’s a novel by Stephen King, and after the stupid disaster that is Annabelle Creation, this movie was a breath of fresh air.


3605971553936_naked_heatMUST BUY MAKEUP:  Urban Decay’s Naked Heat Palette.  I have always been a fan of the Naked Palette series, but this particular one suits my skin tone out of all of the ones released.  I would have preferred more matte colors but I can forgive that — the pigmentation is beyond amazing.  I found that it has less fallout than the previous versions so that is another plus.


FUN SPOT:  Ganadara Bar at Ste-Catherine Street, Montreal.  It is not a secret that I love download (1)anything Korean.  The albacore tataki, skewer set (chicken skin and chicken heart people) and bulgogi nachos were amazing.  But their bingsus take the effin’cake.  The prices are reasonable too, especially since Korean restaurants are known to be on the expensive side.  Love the decor as well and of course their music (KPOP)


CHART TOPPER:  BTS’ Love Yourself:  Her.  The boys are back and they did not bts_1505228590_Screen_Shot_2017-09-12_at_11.01.01_AM.pngdisappoint!  This album is a departure from their signature sound, with songs that are more EDM than their previous releases.  BTS‘ advantage over other Kpop groups is that they write and produce their own songs, so the possibilities are endless.  They are also known to speak their mind, however controversial a topic is.  On this album, they even have a song telling ARMY (their fandom) to chill and not forget to live their lives by focusing on just being BTS fans.  Some say it is a diss track, but I find that it is more the, showing concern for their fans, who they genuinely love and appreciate.  They have been breaking records left and right with this comeback and I am not surprised.  Don’t forget to listen to Jimin’s Intro:  Serendipity — Jimin slayed that song.  His vocals are improving.

FAVORITE(S) in this album:  I LOVE them all, but if I have to pick, it’ll be the Vocal Line’s Dimple.


Currently 2017 edition

So it’s been a while.  I’m sorry.  I have been too busy lately.  I went back to working full time for now, since school really put a hole in my bank account.  To be honest, I don’t think I’m going to go back to school.  Reason?  Age.  Money.  Interest.  The list is endless.

So to sum up my absence:

CURRENTLY WATCHING:  Knowing Brothers featuring the kings Bangtan Sonyeondanbts_20170917_124644 (BTS).  They are back and they have been slaying the charts!  This particular TV guesting had me laughing non stop.  I heard the cast were holding back in fear of ARMY backlash, but as a BTS fan, it was funny nonetheless.


CURRENTLY EATING:  Nothing.  It’s 3:30 am here, so yeah.

CURRENTLY CRAVING:  Bubble Milk Tea.  I have been craving this for weeks now, which is bad, since I am a type 2 diabetic.

CURRENTLY DRINKING:  Diet Coke.  Nothing special.

dec0fdf80d4c050111defb64e52cf5ee--brown-boots-outfit-fashion-bootsCURRENTLY WANTING TO BUY:  a new pair of fall boots.  I’m not a shoe person, per se.  I usually buy a pair and use it until it breaks or splits in half.  This year however, I decided to splurge a little bit.  I noticed that my paycheck depletes because of my restaurant hopping and I want to try and buy something for ME every paycheck — be it shoes, bag, clothes, makeup or skin care.  Something that is NOT food, goddamnit.

39efbdd3e8deb5912bf65eaae59b705d1b4cd51c_00CURRENTLY CRUSHING:  Who the FUCK else?  None other than the Golden Maknae of BTS, Jeon Jungkook.  Do I really have to tell you why?  He sings like an angel, exudes sexiness when he dances, has swag when he raps, he’s a freaking athlete, his body is to die for and despite all that, he remains one of the humblest, most down to earth celebrity I have ever known.  Yes, I know, I got it BAAAD.  I am so trash it’s embarrassing.

CURRENT SONG ON REPEAT:  DNA by BTS.  Actually, fuck that.  I have the whole Love Yourself:  Her on repeat.  Check it out if you haven’t already!  All the songs are great, but I recommend Dimple and Mic Drop the most.

CURRENTLY UPSET ABOUT:  My stupid roommate.  He has been an asshole as of late.  I can’t even manage to talk to him without wanting to slap that stupid look on his face.

Well there you go!  Toodles!