I wish I could come here and say that life had been nicer to me since my last rant, but unfortunately, that is not the case.
I do not know if what I am currently feeling is just a phase I would eventually be able to overcome, or if it is a sign that it is time to move on and find a new path. Work has been hell but surprisingly, it is not because of the pandemic. I am about to lose my sanity over my co-workers and their petty shenanigans that will put high schoolers to shame. I don’t even know if it actually is them, or if I’m just at the end of my rope. I started looking for other jobs In other hospitals, but to be honest I am not sure if I am ready to let go of my seniority at the hospital where I work. I figured I’ll cross that bridge when I get an offer.
My mental health has been riding a seesaw lately — at times I am at peace with myself, especially when I am alone while listening or watching BTS while they deliberately make a fool of themselves (too cute for words), or when I am FaceTiming with my nieces and nephews. There really isn’t a chance of going out while Covid 19 is still reigning supreme worldwide, but with the vaccinations pushing through, we are finally seeing that small sliver of hope we have been denied of for more than a year now.
At least I have my Bangtan boys to cheer me up when I am feeling down 🙂